The last few weeks of prep are always… interesting. Mentally I am exhausted, physically I am exhausted, yet I am still lifting at full strength.
Oddly enough the gym is the only place I feel strong and fully functioning. I am VERY forgetful and easily distracted. Starting tasks, then starting another and forgetting what I was doing all together.
I find that the world itself is a very confusing place and I get very frustrated at myself for functioning in this state.
This is the honest truth about my experience in prep
It is fricken' (sic) hard and exhausting at the end. No glitz, no glamour, just gotta follow the plan, stick to routine, no matter how I feel physically or emotionally.
However I am relaxed about it and throw everything into the gym.. I go to bed the same every night regardless… and I'd rather go victorious.
I am constantly surprised by the overwhelming support I am receiving from the people around me. During previous preps I never really discussed what I was doing and how I was feeling with anyone but my coach. I never would have thought that I would receive so much respect for my personal endeavours.
I am humbled to say the least, and it definitely helps alleviate the mental burdens I impose on myself for being more withdrawn and fatigued. I am currently on 2400 calories per day with one 1000 calorie re-feed each week. Right now at 3 weeks out, I am sitting where I want to be condition wise and I may be lucky enough to receive multiple weekly re-feeds - depending if my coach permits it… hint hint..
Everything considered it looks like the final weeks will be pretty amazing and with my calories nice and high I won’t have to worry about doing anything too damaging to my metabolism and won’t have to recover from this prep.